If you can't say something positive just don't say anything at all...Well at least that is my goal.

I know I have been gone for awhile but I haven't had much to report and I sometimes feel it is better to just fall off the map for a bit than to complain about my situation. Things continue to be a challenge but I am trying very hard to take it one day at a time.

So, as for new attempts to feel more like the old me, I have recently gone on a low/no sugar diet. After researching how sugar can wreak havoc on our bodies, I decided it was the one thing I could do without a Doctors fee, especially since I am a total sugaraholic! My biggest pain issue is caused from inflammation so I am on a mission to find a way to rid my body/feet of this symptom in hopes of getting some normalcy back in my world. I am so exhausted from pain.

I did start taking an antidepressant to help with my emotions which has been a big help, I resisted the idea of taking it for so long and now I think to myself what the heck was I waiting for! I also started seeing a pain psychologist to help me find ways to cope with all the changes and challenges that I am now going through. I have such an amazing support system, so again I resisted the idea of going to talk with someone, but what a blessing that my mom finally got through to me. Anyone dealing with changes due to physical pain and loss of independence should never hesitate to do this. I can honestly say that before the antidepressants and therapist I was crying daily and wondering what the point of all this is. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy! I am trying to see this as an opportunity to grow and learn and I will say that I am learning an incredible amount of patience. I still go to bed every night hoping and that I will wake in the morning pain free so I can get back to everything I love to do. RSD has changed my life in ways that surprise me daily, I may have lost a lot temporarily but I have gained an awareness of my importance to others which I doubted in the past due to my own lack of self worth and I also learned what an amazing man I am married to! Who knew illness and stress could actually make a marriage stronger.

I would encourage anyone who loves someone dealing with loss of lifestyle or independence due to illness or disability and want to understand what it is they deal with to read “The Spoon Theory” by Christine Miserandino. It is a bit of a long read however it truly gives an understanding of how we live our lives day in and day out.

"The Spoon Theory" by Christine Miserandino

I have said it before and I am going to say it again thank you for all the love and support you continue to give me.

I know God will not give me anything I can't handle.  I just wish that He didn't trust me so much.  ~Mother Teresa